Reality Check

Irina Asleigh T. Belmes. I still believe in forever. Forever is a reality; the only reason why some people can’t make it happen because they hinder themselves from believing it. I believe in happily ever after. I believe in the beauty of being true to yourself because it brings out the best in you. I believe that each and everyone of us is an exquisite work of art created by God. Therefore, we must not feel like otherwise. We are nothing less than His child, His treasure and His most valued creations. I believe that nothing is impossible except for the concept of impossibility. Things become impossible only if you believe it is. I believe in true love. Somewhere, somehow, I know he’s there bound to love me for who I am; bound to make me as happy as I can be; and bound to make me need nothing else in his arms. I may have met him, known him or maybe he’s yet to come at God’s own perfect time. I believe in the power of dreams and living them out to reality. Everyday, I strive to live a world of boundless possibilities with dreams inside my pocket and faith in my every step. I wear my heart under these sleeves wherever I go. I keep a smile painted on my face and a cheerful laugh to share with everyone. Joy is contagious. 

I’ve been hurt, wounded and crushed but I’m back on my feet. I’ve learned from my mistakes, still learning and will be learning more from every wrong turn. I am vulnerable and naive. And yes, many have taken my weaknesses against me. I’ve been lied to, betrayed and rejected like everyone else. But that will not keep me from moving forward. I know myself better than that. 

I’m trying to pull myself together and figure out who I really am and what I am bound to do. I’ll find something useful to do with my life. In the mean time, I find myself at ease by letting my emotions flow from my mind to the paint brush to the canvass; from the pencil to the sketch pad. I also write. Writing allows me to capture my thoughts in a piece of paper. I see the paper as a sanctuary for my thoughts. It is where they can be freely expressed without being harshly discriminated. Writing and painting provides me the understanding I thirst from this world. It is through these that I find myself blissful and at peace. In the mean time, I am still an awkward creature in an awkward life, in a messed up world. In the mean time, my duty is to my heart. 

So in the mean time, would you care to make me smile?